Last night, as Clay and I sat in my car and talked after youth group, I made an honest and surprising confession: "I don't like coming to youth group."
That's a pretty revolutionary statement, considering that I've spent most Wednesdays for the last three years volunteering with youth group...
We don't really know what that means yet--if I should step down, if I should wait it out or what. Right now I'm just going to take some time to think and pray about it.
What I do know is that I'm excited to be a change agent in our church and community, and having Wednesday nights to really pursue my heart's desires could be a better thing for me, the church, and the community. For instance, I'm interested in doing a public showing of Amazing Grace at our church and then having a dialogue about modern-day slavery afterwards...perhaps working towards some points of action with people in the church.
So right now--I don't know what this honest confession means. There's part of it that feels like it's violating something--maybe just violating this idea that I'm the 'youth' girl. But there's another part of me that thinks that being honest about it is being brave--brave enough to step into a ministry more uncertain, more undeveloped...
I'll keep you posted.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Is Being Honest Being Brave?
Posted by hbu at 5:30 PM
Labels: being a Christian in 21st century America, human trafficking
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i really wish is wasn't considered brave to be honest. i would rather think that it's honorable to be honest (same root word, no?). but we've twisted it all up with our bad reactions to good honesty. i don't think you're brave hmb (at least not in this situation). i think you did what should be normal. i also think that you must trust this boy a lot. good call. peace from the middle east.
I definitely agree that being honest and vulnerable should be more normal than they are... Maybe if we really are intentional about affirming honesty (as you have been) people would be more apt to be honest? Oh--I guess you just said that. So I wholeheartedly agree that trust has to precede honesty... And--evidently I trust Clay.
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